Sanjaya

SERIOUSLY!??!?!?!?!????!?!?!?



*today i am thankful for my tv!

Love Is Difficult

From Brothers and Sisters:


Sarah: "Why can't you say anything? One thing to make this feel better?"

Therapist: "There are no shortcuts Sarah, in life or in love. This pain must be felt. The alternative is much worse. It's what makes us special, what makes us beautiful, what makes us worthy...the pain of how we love. But that pain is accompanied by something else isn't it? Hope? With your pain there is hope and that is where you are...somewhere between agony, optimism and prayer. So you're human. You're alive. And that is what we have."


*today i am thankful for photo opportunities

Incompetente, desconsiderado y inculto

Graduating as a psychology major gave me the edge to see people for who they really are. It's a bit arrogant but i'm hardly ever wrong about my impressions. :) More often than not, it's a good thing. I get to see that we are all unique and special in our own right but there are times when all i see is the incompatibility i have with some.

I have real friends --friends who i argue with, friends who have seen me cry, friends who know about my life; friends who sometimes don't like me but love me in spite of and vice versa. But then again there are those "incompatible-you're-not-really-my-friend friends". These are the people who smile like there is no tomorrow at everyone they meet but grow claws as soon as backs are turned. These are the people whose eyes say everything that they aren't. These are the people who i feel do not deserve the kind of friends that they have.

I told my M & K that this year one of my resolutions is to be a b*tch when needed. And so far i've followed that resolution to the letter. I've never been choosy about friends. And i don't want to be. Friendships are blessings and one can only pray that they remain true and strong. But i realized that i can never be friends with people who are incompetente, desconsiderado y inculto. I mean seriously, i love it when my friends can honestly tell me if something's wrong with me. I love it when we can all laugh at the mistakes that we made and move forward. But i hate it when people become selfish. I hate it when people see the need to always be in the good side of people and be perfect. It's ok to make mistakes. But owe up to the consequences. If people laugh at you? Who give's a sh*t?! Grow up. It's ok to ask for help but be grateful--don't ask for help if kuk*palin niyo lang yung tumulong sa inyo. Mahiya nga kayo sa mga nakakabata sa inyo (*ssh*l*s!!!). The past week alone gave me an opportunity to figure out a couple of those people (people who i always had a hunch would end up being on my not-my-friend list from the very beginning but gave a chance to). And it's disheartening to be surrounded by people who seem like smart *sses but know absolutely nothing, have no sense of personality, and have nothing except a heart of f*cked up pride and stupidity. And the sad thing is, i have a limit and once you've crossed that limit...i do not forgive nor forget. Some people try to figure me out and it's not complicated at all...if i consider you as a friend you'll know it (there won't be any second guessing 'is she being true' kind of thing). So to the people who made the past week what it was...i hope you all burn and freaking rot in hell. To my friends (the people i consider my family, the people im still close to, the people im not so close to but have been friends with forever, the people i've known since hs/college and haven't seen/talked to in ages but love to death), i've said it countless of times in this blog but know that i love you all and am grateful that i have you in my life.


*today i am thankful for being able to find the words to express my anger. i am also thankful that people's true colors always come out when the time is right...

Eleven Minutes by Paulo Coelho

An excerpt from the book of one of my favorite authors which i am currently reading...

"Passion makes a person stop eating, sleeping, working, feeling at peace. A lot of people are frightened because when it appears, it demolishes all the old things it finds in its path.

No one wants their life thrown into chaos. That is why a lot of people keep that threat under control, and are somehow capable of sustaining a house or a structure that is already rotten. They are engineers of the superseded.

Other people think exactly the opposite: they surrender themselves without a second thought, hoping to find in passion the solutions to all their problems. They make the other person responsible for their happiness and blame them for their possible unhappiness. They are either euphoric because something marvelous has happened or depressed because something unexpected has just ruined everything.

Keeping passion at bay or surrendering blindly to it --which of these two attitudes is the least destructive?

I don't know."


*today i am thankful for opportunities

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows

Today I got an email from Amazon about this book. It is already available for pre-order and will be released on July 21,2007. As geeky as it sounds, I cannot wait to get my hands on a copy of this book.

I was never the type to go gaga over the Harry Potter series. First of all, bookstores here in the Philippines would jack up the prices like crazy. It would cost us around $25-30 for one book! Second, I never liked "magic". Lastly, I only borrowed and read the first book for a class in philosophy. But when the sixth book came out, I decided to give it a try. We bought mint condition, 2nd hand hardbound copies of the first 5 books (I sort of have obsession with books and do not enjoy sharing them--I would lend you my book but I would never borrow from you kind of thing) and I ended up reading books 2-6 in a week. I cried my eyes out in books 5 and 6 and I was hooked. After which I realized that I should've waited for the 7th book to come out before reading the whole thing. But then again I am ecstatic that the release date is final! 5+ months is not a very long wait :)


*today i am thankful for harry potter books and kaya toast

FINALLY!!!

After a month of trying to access my blogger account, I finally succeeded. The Taiwan earthquake affected the internet connection here in the Philippines. But hopefully everything is back to normal.

Life has been pretty stressful since the new year. On top of planning for our wedding, I found out recently that I would have to move out by April. I have like a million bills to pay in addition to my taxes. I have countless of people pestering me to sign documents. 2007 so far has been one big headache. Even though i have lhb, i cannot rely on him that much anymore because he too has a lot on his plate because of his classes and the upcoming CFA examination. I miss my childhood the most during times like these. I had the best parents in the world. They helped me all the time, gave me everything that they could and never chained me down. It is so different as an adult. The responsibility is overwhelming. But then again i know that i am blessed. I don't think a lot of people can say that they are free to do anything that they want most of the time. I don't think people have that luxury and i know i should be more grateful.

“And me, I still believe in paradise. But now at least I know it's not some place you can look for, 'cause it's not where you go. It's how you feel for a moment in your life when you're a part of something, and if you find that moment... it lasts forever...”


*today i am thankful for love and friendship.

Mau Marcelo - 1st Philippine Idol

Congrats Mau!!!

She deserves the title (and i am proud to say that i voted for her. haha). I hope that Mr.C writes a song for her...that would just be beautiful. Until the next Philippine Idol!

Philippine Idol Finale (Part 1)

2 hours into the show and still no results! But i must say, Filipino voters...you make me proud. At the beginning of the Phil. Idol run, i expected that people would only vote based on image and not based on talent. After hearing the people who didn't make it to the top 3, i believe that people did vote wisely (except when more people voted for miguel than pau...but then again i heard that people "very close" to him bought a lot of votes. tsk tsk. but karma does come around doesn't it?). Good luck Mau, Gian and Jan!


*today i am thankful for true talent!