Real Friends?

I sometimes wonder if i'm missing out on a lot of things by not having a gazillion "real friends" (though i actually don't believe that it's possible to have that many "real friends"). But i believe that real friendship is based on trust; entrusting your life to someone who is not your blood, trusting that someone to be completely honest with you...etc. I remember high school when everyone seemed to be friends with everyone else (or at least it looked that way). College was almost the same as high school, its just that some of those whom i thought were my real friends in hs weren't (though i am very grateful for those who were and still are). But after graduating from college, i realized that there are so many people that i couldn't trust. And there are actually a lot of people who simply are fakes. There are a lot of people who smile at me and say sort-of kind things and actually just say it because i'm a 'friend of a friend' or because i'm a friend of someone they like or because i'm the girlfriend of someone they like and even worse because a parent of mine had passed away (they actually have the nerve to try and be nice to me even though they've done s**t loads of unfriendly things). Everytime i think of these people, i can't help but feel annoyed that i even let someone like that cross paths with me or let someone else push me to "try and be friends" with that person. Because that is crap and it's actually a big waste of my time. Thankfully, i have wonderful and loving friends around me! Quality over quantity right? :) And i'm happy now with all of friends that i have. When i grow old and die and if by then i still have the friends that i have now, i'd die a very lucky lady :) They know who they are and i love them completely and i wouldn't trade them for anyone else :) :) :)


*Today i am thankful for the patience and love of my lhb :) and for the yummy "meringue" that i just ate :)
*I am also grateful that though i might need to move soon, i still have a house that is full of memories and i will be able to spend one last Christmas/New Year here.