Eeewwwww... =S
I know i am very sentimental. But finding my old journals made my skin crawl. hahaha. I find this very silly. I didn't think that i'd ever laugh about my "senti-ness" :) I used to like writing like short silly mushy poems. And i have this notebook full of those. OMG. I didn't actually think it was that much!!!! But then again, i was young and foolish and crazy. hahaha. And it's so funny because i know who i wrote about the most. And it was insane!!! I wanna slap myself silly for actually writing all that. But i must admit, i had fun laughing at my old self :D
To the people that i've known forever they know how i was about that guy. They knew that for the longest time i was in love with him. Just one guy. Sure i had tons of like crushes but this one guy was the love of my life, my first love :P OMG. What a cliche!!! And looking back, no matter how silly it sounds, i know now that it was real real real. I was freakin' crazy over him. God, i think even my parents knew. I think my dad actually thought we would end up together (i was 14 for crying out loud!!! and i think my dad is very happy in heaven knowing that i wont!!! :)). Which i found insane because when my dad talked to me about him i didn't like him yet, then again that's another story! But like most unfortunate situations, he only saw me as a friend (complete moron!!!!!!!!!!:)). Thus the sad sad sad entries... :)
I was reading through the entries/poems, etc. And i came across this one poem. And i was like "holy crap...!!!". Please someone smack me in the head if i'm still as sentimental as this :P
It hurts me to let you go
but that's how it should be
the world is perfect the way it is
it's perfect when you're not with me
I know in time i'll get over you
over all the pain i feel
because that's just the way the world is
through time wounded hearts do heal
Your life keeps on moving
and mine moves on too
life is supposed to be that way
i'm not supposed to be with you
i never really had a hold on your heart
and my love you'll never know
just so the world will be the way it's supposed to be
i will let you go
*today i am thankful for the memories that i can laugh about no matter how painful they seemed back then. And i am grateful for my friends who are children at heart because they keep me young and happy :)
posted by wela at 11:58 PM
5 Comments:
Ay diyos ko! I have a hope chest filled with what must be hundreds upon hundred of letters, cards, pictures, what have you keepsakes / knick knacks I've kept since I was hmmm 5 maybe from friends. I remember staying up literally until daylight going through them laughing & crying like a lunatic. I've done it thrice siguro?! One time, my mom barged into my room asking WTH was happening to me because I was hysterically loud!!!! I should do that again. Where is that giant baul / hope chest nga!?!
hahaha naku i don't even want to get started on my memory box :P but it really was a great and funny feeling getting to read all those things again. hehehe :) you should do that again! the best tlga :P
=P grabe, kahit na nabasa ko na ito yday, m still reacting as if i'm reading this for the first time =P
i bet nga, kung magkaharap tayo ngayon, i wont need to explain myself ;) you'd get instantly whats goin on my mind =P hehehehehe
was thinking nga kung sinong pede kong bulabugin to tell about ur topic sa blog kasi nga bigla kong naalala itong si super special someone mo...hehehe...tawa ako ng tawa ngayon pero dati medyo serious topic yan ;)...pero yun nga, the closest person i could think of na kilala ko...hmm...no comment nalang ;)
pero bigla ko rin naalala na itong kaibigan kong ito ay si super senti nga pala...pero naman kasi ngayon, na talagang ur on ur own na, with ur own business AND nearing marriage(it has to be said syempre...hehehe) =P ang dating mo na is sobrang responsible and serious ADULT na...parang "for adults only" na ang buhay mo =P i guess people tend to forget ur sweetie, sentimental, bathetic, maudlin, mawkish, mushy, romantic, schmaltzy, slushy, soppy side(thank you dictionary.com) ;) kulang pa nga yan...pero that would do...
anyway...sige na at baka mas mahaba na ang comment ko sa blog mo...dami pa sana...pero next blog nalang...hehehehe
stay sweet ;)
hahahahahaha ang haba nga ng comment mo!!! :) haha kahit ako natatawa sa sarili ko talaga dati. diba???? naalala mo????? grabe diba?! engot din naman kasi yung lalaki (as you all know) :P buti nalang "adult" na ko and he is forgotten. hahaha. and buti nalang i know i became a better person and siya naging user lang :P hahahahaha. bitter?! :P
haha thanks sa comment :) it made my day! :) magkablog ka narin para maka-comment din ako :) hehehehehe :)
halu!!!
hehehe, just read this again...la lang. Kulit mo sobra...hahaha...still laughing my butt off...hehehe....
yun lang po =P
ingats
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