Something Wonderful

Though i am not that well yet, i didn't cancel my lunch earlier. And i am really glad i didn't. One thing, it was a special occasion, second i was really looking forward to it and lastly it was with lhb :). The food was really good (as expected) though it was a bit expensive. I had to eat really slow (to avoid the the need to run to the bathroom) but i enjoyed every bite. And i am simply joyous that we ordered their chocolate cake with orange caramel sauce...a heavenly heavenly dessert. Yum yum yum :) I really had a great day :)



*today i am thankful for the 4 1/2 yrs lhb and i have been together. I am thankful for all the happy moments as well as the difficult ones. And i am thankful as well for the unknown future that we will face together :)

Murphy's Law

I just hate it when one thing goes wrong and everything follows. I hate it. I just got my internet hooked up again today (finally!). And today is the deadline for my sketches. But unfortunately for me, I woke up before 5 am this morning with a freakin fever and diarrhea!!! I can't lie down because everytime i do i feel like going to the bathroom. But if i sit up for long periods of time i feel like vomiting. I have to finish so many things but i can't!!! and tom i have this lunch which i have to go to but how am i going to eat if i don't get better by today??? Sucks like hell.



*today i am thankful for medicine, sprite and crakers. And i am thankful for the knowledge that i will get better sooner or later.

Fashion Panic part 2

1. My internet isn't working so i have to resort to dial up. No net = no resources = no additional ideas for sketches. DIAL UPS SUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2. I don't know if i should color the sketches coz my friend said it's ok if we don't (but i actually think it's not). But i don't know if i have time to ink my sketches!!!

3. Should i buy better yet more expensive sketch books?

4. Where are the brushes that i bought from hk?!

5. only 3 days to go... :(



*today i am thankful for my love for fashion--my love for fashion pushed me to buy books abroad--which i am currently using because i don't have internet access!!! but seriously i am thankful that i still love it. it's not that often that a person finds that just one thing that he/she has been passionate about his/her whole life.

Fashion Panic

So little time so much to do.......!!!!!!!! 12 sketches due on monday. 0 done. Panic panic panic....!!! i actually want to kill the crammer in me right now (psychotic? :P)

Where do i begin?! It's been a while since i sketched something. And at this very moment i feel lost (all because of the panic) and this makes me feel like i am not updated with the future trends in fashion. I actually feel like my mind is going to explode soon because seriously the panic cells are slowly taking over my brain!!!!!!!

5 days to go...



*today i am thankful for endless opportunities and the unending support of the the people in my life :)

College Friends

Last night i was able to have dinner with a few of my college friends. Though i missed KL :) It was fun because I haven't seen them for months! I thought of it as something special because one of our friends will be getting married a month from now. And last night might have been the last time that we would have seen her as "single". I know that it really won't change that much but she being the first one to get married in the group signifies the changes that we will all get to experience in the future. I can't wait for her wedding! :) I wish her all the best :)

Jason Mraz

I was able to watch Jason Mraz live again (Yay for me!!! :)). And i still love watching him perform. He's a talented artist, a charming performer and a great writer. I still think that he's one of the best performers to watch. Love love love love him!!!!!!! :)

Live performances really make me happy :) Though I wish that more performers would come visit.

My Jason Mraz song has always been one of my favorites from the beginning (though all his songs are great) :)


Sleeping To Dream

I'm dreaming of sleeping next to you
I'm feeling like a lost little boy in a brand new town
I'm counting my sheep and each one that passes is another dream to ashes
and they all fall down

As I lay me down tonight,
I close my eyes and what a beautiful sight

I'm sleeping to dream about you
I'm so tired of having to live without you
So I'm sleeping to dream about you and I'm so tired

I found myself in the riches (Your eyes, your lips, your hair)
Well you were everywhere
But I woke up in the ditches
I hit the light and I thought you might be here
but you were nowhere
You were nowhere at home

As I lay me back to sleep
Lord I pray that I can keep

Sleeping to dream about you
I'm so tired of having to live without you
So I'm sleeping to dream about you and I'm so tired


*today i am thankful for my friends who know the true meaning of friendship

Money money money...

In the lives of most people, money is usually part of what makes life complex. And being in that stage where parents are no longer a fallback, it can get very stressful. I know that people who don't know me that well or people i am not that close to think that i have everything and that i am all set for life. But i am not. It's frustrating sometimes not having what my sister has. They have it easy. My nephew doesn't even have to work anymore. I know i'm quite lucky because we have a business (though it isn't doing as well as expected) but sometimes i wonder what it would be like to be able to save more than enough (or even consistently save a little). Sometimes i feel as though it really isn't worth it to live here anymore. But who knows? This might be my lucky year!

I remembered this episode from oprah where they were talking about women millionaires. And oprah said "it's not about how much you make but how much you keep". And that stuck with me ever since. I just hope that with hard work and patience i get to where i want to be in life.


*today i am thankful for the happiness despite the pain. And for all the difficult experiences in my life that made me stronger.

Another one of those...

...senti senti emails!!! I apologize for being so freakin' senti right now! Haha :) In my previous entry i included one email. While i was checking my mail, i looked through the other emails that i got before and i really shouldn't have done that because now i feel so mushy! hahaha :)

I remember reading this email and thinking "wow". Haha. I don't think that was the right word but well, it was so touching. Oh well. Senti me :)

by the way...kat, i found your old emails...senti!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHA :)


Anything Less Than Mad Love Is A Waste Of Your Time
by Leah S. Casta

One of the most recently released movies that have perhaps hit home (cringe!), so to speak, is the low-budget "Dream for an Insomniac"starring Ione Skye and Jennifer Aniston. The lead actor used to be a child star but unfortunately, the movies which catapulted him to fame have already slipped my mind. Try to rent a copy of this movie not because of the talent of those who starred in it but because of the dialogue. One of those lines which bore a hole in my heart was, and I quote (not verbatim, though):

"I don't want to be sixty years old and married to my second-best choice, wondering what ever happened to the one who got away."

This is just one of the two great lines in that movie. I'll tell you what the other one is later. Meantime, let me concentrate on this line - the line that sends chills down your spine once you decide to spend more than five seconds thinking about it.

Have you ever wondered what it must feel like married to the one you settled on? This truly gives me great feelings of anxiety. It might be difficult to accept the word "settle" because it conjures up images of quasi-happiness and half-hearted glee. Yes, there is some sort of satisfaction and perhaps, some feeling of security that can be derived from such a partnership but I wonder, could there be anything more? To settle is to ultimately accept what is within reach, what is available, what is there.

To settle is to convince one's self that the decision about to be made is inevitable, realistic, and safe. To settle is to risk not ever being truly happy because one decides to adopt the worst type of "bahala na" attitude on life's greatest challenges. And settling is a sorry consequence of the passage of time.

Yes, time can be the balm that soothes open, painful wounds in one's heart but it can also be that dark force that manipulates one's mind into thinking and believing that the choice one has made is the best choice... the only choice. What time does, and I'm sure you'll agree, is it lodges one's mind and heart in a cage with the door partly open-with the promise of a better life losing its appeal over the reality of the present, the convenient,and the routine. Time also pressures one into selecting a suitor or spouse because 'wala nang iba' (there is no one else) and 'nagmamadali na ako' (I'm in a hurry) and there, 'puwede na rin.' (I'll make do).

The wickedness of "settling" is not one way. It also eventually hurts the one who was chosen because in all respects, the truth will surface. You no doubt realize that you just wasted each other's time and emotions. But then again, if your spouse chose you not because he or she "settled," then forget about the win-win situation you were gunning for.

Frankie (Ione Skye) delivered that line when she was deciding whether or not to do everything possible to win David Shrader's heart. David happened to be involved with someone else. He was attracted to Frankie but didn't really think it wise to split up with his girlfriend of three years on a limb. Very much unlike you and me, Frankie is very atypical of the Rules Girl. She went for David, bared her soul, and tried to convince him that he will only be happy with her. She then gave him the other great line in the movie to make him leave his girlfriend for her.

"Anything less than mad, passionate love is a waste of my time."

"There are so many mediocre things in life, and love shouldn't be one of them."

In the end, David left his girlfriend for Frankie and they lived happily ever after. Wow. Many times, in my not too colorful past, I almost gave in to the urge to tell the boy I liked what I felt for him. In all those times, I opted otherwise for fear of my mother's wrath and, of course, embarrassment in case of rejection. I am scared of losing my precious dignity and pride in case he tells me that he only sees me as a friend. I'm sure you got through these exercises in your psyche too. Sometimes, our hearts win out over our minds when our certainty over the outcome is great. I try to espouse The Rules and very rarely make the first move. More often than not, I wait for the guy to call. Now you know that I'm one of those who walk the avenues of life on a sidewalk-never off it.

Now, I'm starting to believe otherwise. I see the beauty in sharing your feelings with the one you love - not because you expect something in return but because life cannot be lived otherwise. It is a great, big step for an otherwise conservative, 'torpe' girl like you and me but if you think
about it, it's the only way to go.

Richard Paul Evans' bestseller after The Christmas Box-The Locket- tells us the story of a woman who fell in love with a soldier when they were both very young. They shared their feelings with each other and were very happy. Eventually, he went off to war and she married somebody else, thinking he wouldn't return to her. Years passed and they lived their separate lives-he married and had a family while the woman's husband and son eventually succumbed to illnesses and died. She decided to wait for her soldier's wife to die before she came back to him-because she didn't think it was right to complicate his life. The wait took more than sixty years until she eventually found the announcement of his wife's death in the obituary. By this time, the woman was already 80 and could barely walk. Sadly, by the time she managed to find her soldier to tell him she loved him, he was already senile. The woman eventually died a few days after seeing her soldier and perhaps going through the most heart-wrenching experience in her life. She was too late.

The morals of the stories I have mentioned above are similar and almost connected to each other. Perhaps another book theme that we can tie into these is that line from The Bridges of Madison County-"This kind of certainty comes but once in a lifetime."

I am of the belief that each person is given the chance to find his one true love as he goes about his life. Sometimes, the opportunity is not too obvious, especially for those who are content with their situation and therefore are not seeking "greener pastures." These times, the chance is often passed up. The luckier ones are those who are probably more clear-minded and in touch with their emotions because they can easily recognize what is staring them in the face. Whether this chance is passed up or not, I know that the feeling one gets when this chance is still within reach is one of certainty. Yes, it is also accompanied with feelings of danger, of risk, and of possible pain but compensating for this is that inexplicable "sureness," that sense of profound happiness that has never been derived anywhere else but from that one person who just happened to pass by in your tidy little life.

I call true love a gift because of its rarity. It does not happen everyday. If you pass it up the first time, try not to be too arrogant to look away when it comes by the second time. You may ask me "how will I know if this is my true love?" My answer to that is this: true love is that strong, awesome feeling that scares the hell out of you but always makes you unbearably happy. It doesn't go away, no matter how much you will it to.

More than anything else, you'll know in your heart when you meet him that he is the one. He doesn't become the one the same way that soulmates do not become soulmates later in life. With him, you are damn certain that you are not settling. With him, you know that you will be sixty years old and never wondering about the one that got away because he never did.

He's right there holding your hand.

Growing Up...

I don't know why but the new year always makes me feel so senti :) Early this week i hung out with a couple of friends of mine. And it felt so good being with such wonderful people and people i hardly see. And i realized that we're actually really all grown up. I've known these people from high school and we've seen each other laugh, cry, fall in love and get our hearts broken. And as M said "it took us a while but we're finally here". It felt really good to be able to sit down with people who you've known forever and see that they too understand the value of real friendships and serious relationships. And i was so joyous to see them so happy. I met M's guy and i am so happy she found someone who loves her that much and who seems like someone she could be with forever :) Yay yay yay :) Other than that we talked about our jobs and our plans for the future. And it really made me feel old. Haha :) I can't believe that in less than 3 months i'll be another year older but not a penny richer :P But seriously i don't know if it's just me but growing up isn't as fun as i thought it would be. And people expect me to have like kids soon and i think "how the hell do i even start to save up for that?!". The future is a scary thing i think. But because of the loving people around me i think i'll survive :)

All that senti sh*t made me remember an email that i got while i was still in college. I remember thinking wow i can't imagine myself being that age and feeling all those things. But walah! I am there. hehehe:)


"Twenty Something Drama"

For those in their twenty-somethings this puts it all into words perfectly.
They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis."

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like.

You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are
as confused as you.

You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared.

You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant
basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren't so great after all.

You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not want.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and you add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not.

You are insecure and then secure.

You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life.

You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the enemy, you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and
there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough to get to know better.

You love someone but you also love someone else too, and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person.

One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap and getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.

You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out. Send this to your twenty-something friends...maybe it will help someone feel like they are not alone in their
State of confusion called our POST-GRAD YEARS!!!


*today i am thankful for all the wonderful books in the world :)

What I Didn't Know

My song for the day :)

What I Didn't Know by Athenaeum

I complain
When nothing's even wrong
And you're ashamed
Cause you're not quite that strong

That's when I said I'll need
More than you can offer me
I miss your face as you can tell
I hope my absence makes you well

Cause what I didn't know
Is I was killing you
I said a lot of things that I didn't mean to
But I am older now
And I am sorry too
So I can wait awhile
If it brings me back to you

I am shy
I never speak a word
And you are numb
From all the things you never heard

That's when I said I'll need
More than you can offer me
But now I own an empty space
And I can't fill it with your face

Cause what I didn't know
Is I was killing you
I said a lot of things that I didn't mean to
But I am older now
And I believe in you
So I can wait awhile
If it brings me back to you


*today i am thankful for the people who have always been there for me

Revivals

I love music. I love songs (everything except the head bangin' snap your head off sort of thing). I love revivals as long as they are done tastefully. I don't believe though that you can be considered a real artist if you don't have an original song of your own. Like a certain girl artist (N_ _ _) who been hailed as some soul artist siren whatever. She doesn't even have even one original song. For the people who aren't really "song" people, they would think that majority of her songs are originals. But i've loved every original version of these songs but she's actually ruined these songs. I never thought someone could ruin the listening experience for me but she actually did. It's sad that people still recognize her for this. Her voice quality is ok. But she won't even be near my top 10 female artists. There are like a handful of people who are so much more deserving than her.



*today i am thankful for the real, good and original artists :)

Wicker Park

Alex: "Who's to say this woman hasn't been in love with you for a really long time. And now that she found you again, she wasn't about to let you go twice."

Matthew: "What?"

Alex: "Maybe the first time she saw you, maybe she felt the way you did the first time you saw Lisa. You remember that. Love makes you do crazy things. Insane things. Things in a million years you never thought you'd see yourself do. There you are doing it. Can't help it."

Fortunately for me i was able to watch a movie today that blew me away. I've had a copy of Wicker Park for quite some time now. And earlier i couldn't find anything to watch anymore so i opted to just watch this just for the sake of being able to watch something new.

The movie is about Matthew (Josh Hartnett) and Lisa (Diane Kruger) who were deeply in love. Unfortunately for Matthew, Lisa just disappeared from his life. 2 years down the road he thinks he spots Lisa. And the story unfolds as he tries to track her down once more.

I got a copy of this film because i never got to watch it in the theaters. And i assumed it would be a romantic (with probably a bit of suspense) film wherein the guy loses the girl, looks for her and simply finds her in the end. But i was dead wrong. I know a lot of people didn't like this movie but for me it was a movie that was planned out perfectly. Yes it was a love story but the suspense was there. The plot may be too complex for some but it really wasn't. The storyline was made to be simple only in the beginning. As the characters slowly revealed their true selves the plot thickened. And it ended perfectly. It wasn't anti-climactic nor dragging. I was literally at the edge of my seat the whole time. The actors did a wonderful job in portraying their characters. Definitely all raves for this movie :) And today i can officially say that i am head over heels in love with Josh Hartnett. Hehehehe :)

It seems as if the soundtrack is good too :) My Wicker Park song is another old song but i still love it anyway :)


The Scientist by Coldplay (but i think they weren't the artists who sang the song for the movie)

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need you
Tell you i set you apart

Tell me your secrets and ask me your questions
Oh let's go back to the start
Running in circles, coming up tails
Heads on a silence apart

Nobody said it was easy, it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy, no one ever said it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start

I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart

Tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing our tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy, Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy, no one ever said it would be so hard

I'm going back to the start

Must Love Dogs

Bill: "Why would you do a thing like that?"

Jake: "It's a long story. Something about the violation of expectations and a crushing loss of faith and love and life and art."

Bill: "So its a girl?"

Jake: "Yes."

Bill: "I've had a little girl trouble myself lately but better to have loved and lost. Am i right?"

Jake: "She was a unique constellation of attributes. She was my Halley's comet. But the universe is designed to break your heart, yes?"

Bill: "A philosopher as well as an artist. Yes, it's we who suffer most."

I just watched "Must Love Dogs". The movie is about Sarah Nolan, a divorced preschool teacher and Jake Anderson, a recently divorced boat builder. Both with the help of their family and friends try to move on with their romantic lives . Their paths cross as Sarah's sister puts a personal ad for Sarah on the internet, while Jake's friend does the same for him which ends up setting him up with her. And the story continues as they get caught up in the "need to date" world once again.

Unfortunately, just as the reviews said the movie wasn't quite as funny and good as expected. The story started out good but as it progressed it became too dull. The conversations weren't very witty. Yes, the cast was comprised of great actors but the characters didn't really have that much charisma and the sparks between them weren't that evident (though I still love John Cusack's smile :)).

Anyway, though a movie isn't that great there is at least one good song in it. hehe :) Here is my Must Love Dogs song :)

Shell by Susie Suh

A time is coming, is coming soon
I feel it in my bones, I feel it in my shoes
I was lost, now I’m found
And all my troubles are turnin’ around

Oh I feel I’m getting’ so close to you
Heaven’s holding my hand and I’m ready to break on through

So I’m tearing down the walls inside
Letting go of all my pride
Make it wrong before the light
I don’t need to hide inside this shell
This shell, no more
No more

I don’t know my right from left
And I’ve been going around this bend
So many miles I have walked
Lately I feel like I’m coming home

Oh I’m getting so close to you
Heaven’s letting it gain (?) and I’m ready to break on through

So I’m tearing down the walls inside
Letting go of all my pride
Make it wrong before the light
I don’t need to hide inside this shell
This shell, no more
No more

Oh no, no, nooo
No more, no more
Yah, yah

So I’m tearing down the walls inside
Letting go of all my pride
Make it wrong before the light
I don’t need to hide inside this shell
This shell, no more
No more


*today i am thankful for the internet!

Love Actually

One of my favorite movies is Love Actually. For those who haven't seen it, it's a movie set in london. The story follows the lives of different people/couples as they face the ups and downs that is brought about by love (romantic, platonic, familial...).

I remembered the movie because i was reading my friend's blog (thanks wana :)) and came across these 2 lines which fall under my favorites as well :)

Jaime: It's my favorite time of day, driving you.

Aurelia: [in Portuguese] It is the saddest part of my day, leaving you.

Also, the soundtrack is pretty good :) And that of course is a big plus :) hehehe. One happy, cute song that i've loved from the soundtrack (which i've adored since the song first came out) is Mariah Carey's All I want for Christmas is you.

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true...
All I want for Christmas
Is you...

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don't care about presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you...
You baby

I won't ask for much this Christmas
I won't even wish for snow
I'm just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeer click
'Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
You...

All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of children's
Laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need
Won't you please bring my baby to me

Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just want to see baby
Standing right outside my door
Oh I just want him for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is
You


*today i am thankful for people who help others out of the kindness of their hearts (and expect nothing in return) :) The world is in need of more people like them :)

Last Song Syndrome

I cannot get this song out of my head!!!!! I like it but it's too short and it just keeps going round and round and round and round... hehehehe :)


Run Like Mad by Jann Arden

my heart is in my hands
my head is in the clouds
my feet have left the ground
my life is turning around and round
and every voice inside my head is tellin' me to run like mad
oh bows and arrows
stars and sunsets
hey hey hey yeah hey hey hey yeah
every heartbeat, every kiss just
makes me wonder what all this is
suits of armor,
hearts and arrows
hey hey hey yeah


*today i am thankful for baby shampoo!!! the scent makes me want to just lie down and sleep. haha :)

Underestimated

This is a shoutout to my friend in hawaii! I hope you get your internet sooooon because i want you to read this! :)

It's funny how i think my ex-friends and other friends used to underestimate my uh "moodiness". In high school and even during my first few years in college i used to get mood swings. But i think what people always expected was that after a while, i'd be pleasant towards everyone again. I would like to believe that i was a very good friend to these people. Some though abused my kindness. Some assumed that i'd always be there. Some probably thought that i'd be their "puppy" and i'd always be there to pat them on the back and say "don't worry everything will be alright"; someone who would fill the attention that they lacked (*note to self: invent an affirmation machine and give it to these girls--excluding cc and pd who are still wonderful friends! and maze too though i haven't talked to her for a long time:)-with key lines : don't worry you look great! you're not fat! don't listen to those people! you're blooming! it's his loss!--which most of the time really isn't--FYI: every single time, the guys break it off. That must mean something :)). Unfortunately for my ex-friends, there came a point when i couldn't take it anymore. I couldn't be a "bdl puppy" nor a hilaw puppy (those who know what the hell i'm talking about should know who i am referring to, hehe). I don't think anyone could be (anyone with a brain that is :)). I think a lot of people thought that the "i realized what a shit you are and i actually hate you" stage would pass and i would be like i'm so sorry for whatever i said. And at the back of my mind maybe i thought it would happen too. But it didn't. Thank God it didn't. Because now, I still feel like vomiting every time i think about being friends with them. I still see the look of surprise when i tell my other high school friends that i still don't talk to that group. It's hilarious! I've always told them that they wouldn't want me as an enemy. And i don't think they believed me back then. Too bad though! :) Some people tell me that it's wrong to hate other people or to harbor such feelings. And yes, up to a point i agree. But hey, i am only human and i cannot help the way that i feel. I don't have a long list of people i despise but for those that i do, i don't think that'll ever change. I won't be a hypocrite and say it'll change because i know it won't. And i hope they get it through their thick heads already.

And it's soooo funny that hilaw asked my hawaii friend who he considers more his friend! Can she spell d-u-m-b-a-s-s?! Haha hilaw is so stupid. The slut that she is, i hardly think she'd have the much real friends :) Believe me, if she even tries to even slightly destroy my friend and his girl's relationship, i will make sure her world crashes to the depths of hell. Hehe. Too much? :) Don't think so :) Being able to say all that really feels good :) Imagine, i only think of them (CKLAC) and i really really want to smash my monitor into bits and pieces. But then i ain't that stupid because i love my lcd :) Hehehe.

Anyway, enough rage for today :) I'm actually glad that i was able to write something about that group because i've been meaning to and never really got the chance to. I knew that my blog wouldn't be considered complete without a real entry about them. At least now it is :) whoohoo :)


*today i am thankful for text messages :)

2006!!!

Happy New Year!!!! :)

This is my first entry for 2006 :) I hope that everyone had a wonderful new years eve celebration :)

I personally cannot believe that it's already 2006. 2005 literally flew by. I am truly thankful for all the blessings as well as misfortunes that i encountered last year. I am thankful that i have found great friends and i am so happy to have established deeper friendships with those i love dearly :) I don't think i would've survived last year without lhb (and his family) and my friends. Thank you all for being there :) hugs and kisses to all of you :)

My "senti-ness" is in overdrive right now :) hehe. Yesterday we attended the wedding of lhb's cousin. It was a garden wedding and it was beautiful!!! And it was so cute because they didn't follow the traditional throwing of the bouquet and garter (thank God!). Instead they gave the bouquet and garter to the oldest couple there (they have been together for 48 yrs to be exact!!!). So so cute. hehe. I wish lhb's cousin all the best in their married life :)

I hope that this new year will bring more happiness, love and peace to everyone. May there be less tears, less heartaches and less disappointments. May all businesses here in the country succeed as well :) Have a wonderful year everyone!!!! :)


*i am thankful for this new year :)