Growing Up...

I don't know why but the new year always makes me feel so senti :) Early this week i hung out with a couple of friends of mine. And it felt so good being with such wonderful people and people i hardly see. And i realized that we're actually really all grown up. I've known these people from high school and we've seen each other laugh, cry, fall in love and get our hearts broken. And as M said "it took us a while but we're finally here". It felt really good to be able to sit down with people who you've known forever and see that they too understand the value of real friendships and serious relationships. And i was so joyous to see them so happy. I met M's guy and i am so happy she found someone who loves her that much and who seems like someone she could be with forever :) Yay yay yay :) Other than that we talked about our jobs and our plans for the future. And it really made me feel old. Haha :) I can't believe that in less than 3 months i'll be another year older but not a penny richer :P But seriously i don't know if it's just me but growing up isn't as fun as i thought it would be. And people expect me to have like kids soon and i think "how the hell do i even start to save up for that?!". The future is a scary thing i think. But because of the loving people around me i think i'll survive :)

All that senti sh*t made me remember an email that i got while i was still in college. I remember thinking wow i can't imagine myself being that age and feeling all those things. But walah! I am there. hehehe:)


"Twenty Something Drama"

For those in their twenty-somethings this puts it all into words perfectly.
They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis."

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like.

You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are
as confused as you.

You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared.

You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant
basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren't so great after all.

You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not want.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and you add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not.

You are insecure and then secure.

You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life.

You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the enemy, you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and
there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough to get to know better.

You love someone but you also love someone else too, and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person.

One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap and getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.

You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out. Send this to your twenty-something friends...maybe it will help someone feel like they are not alone in their
State of confusion called our POST-GRAD YEARS!!!


*today i am thankful for all the wonderful books in the world :)